somewhere out there

Perhaps I seem kinda shallow or fickle or whatever typing this particular post after the last post. But what the heck. I need to think of other things right? Yeah well my mood has been changing pretty frequently (and rapidly) this past week. I’m sure those who read will kinda know what happened without me having to state the obvious. I never liked putting personal stuff on my blogs but I realise that it kinda makes me feel better?

So my mood has been:
On the day of the incident – depressed, heartbroken, disappointed, angry, shocked
day 1 after the 'incident' - totally normal, totally happy, totally in control
day 2 - upset. period.
day 3 - alone at home but feeling better.
day 4 - perfectly fine at first. then slowly changed a little towards sad. then i just started daydreaming (i think the fumes in the batik room were affecting me lol)
day 5 - normal again
day 6 - normal, then sad, then normal again
day 7 - normal :)

sheesh. talk about mood swings. i feel weird. never experienced so many emotions at one go before. O_o

anyways. as i was saying, you might think me shallow after reading this post. and as i was also saying , "whateverrrrr". lol. So here it is. I was having an sms conversation with one of my friends two days ago. i'm not gonna say who cos i dont wanna embarrass her. hahaha. she knows who she is anyways. So we started talking about what kind of guys we like. or should i say want? and she said all she wants is a hot guy who's at least 7 inches. hahaha. totally cracked me up. conversation kinda continued today too. with the rest of the girls :) So it got me thinking. what kinda guy do I like? i realised i'm a pretty fussy person if i'm being totally honest with myself. So here is what I like. lol (told ya i was gonna sound shallow)

a guy who...
1. is good looking (duh,who doesnt want a good looking guy)
2. is taller than me
3. is preferably skinny but athletic
4. is funny but not lame
5. cares as much about me as i care about him (never thought it would be so important to me until now)
6. plays guitar and/or drums (always a plus point for me ;p)
7. has natural dark hair (preferably NOT dyed with any fancy pansy colours. Most guys with dyed hair end up looking totally ah beng)
8. likes rock music and rock music only hahaha
9. DOES NOT SMOKE AT ALL and does not take drugs either
10. doesnt drink. but if that's not possible then at least someone who doesnt drink until he's totally hammered
11. hates clubbing. haha
12. can drive lol (ok this is more for convenience sake than anything lol)
13. knows when i need his support/care/love (i put my hopes too high)
14. dresses well. actually casual is enough as long as he doesnt look ah beng (sorry if i insult any ah bengs)
15. (oh and if possible) doesnt wear bright pink for goodness sake (who the hell started this trend??)
16. surfs or skateboards (another plus point whoohoohoo)
17. (after hearing an incident from rach) is not so crazy about religion or stuff like that (don't get me wrong. i have nothing against religion. it's just that i'm a free thinker)
18. loves me for who i am and doesnt try to change me in any way
19. will treat me equally as his friends (yes, you understood right. i dont demand to be treated better than his friends)
20. will not do to me what i wouldnt do to him
21. doesnt take me for granted
22. doesn't tell me things he doesn't mean
23. is not younger than me
24. is not just interested in the physical nature of a relationship
25. won't go back on his words
26. is loyal (duh)

wow. 26 things. hmm... i'm sure if i were given more time i'd be able to come up with LOTS more hahaha. Now only one question stands. where on earth am i gonna find him?? lol. damn, he sounds totally perfect. And totally impossible to come across. And you know what, the best guys always seem to be taken. Or gay. hahaha. ok i'm in a weird mood today. i better scoot before i begin sounding totally bimbotic (or have i already done that? blehhh).

btw. i hate festive seasons. the fireworks always disturb my sleep. lol. im out.