.

i said distraction could be good. i wanted one and i needed one. and now i've got a distraction. it's ridiculous how soon it happened. and oh boy what a hell of a distraction it is. but it's far more than that. it's a crisis.

but what's worse is that now i've two things on my mind. distraction. it doesnt work.

i understand now how people fall into depression, and i won't criticize again. cos when shit happens, it comes at full force. everything goes downhill, no brakes.

but life happens, and shit does happen. and when faced with life, there isnt much you can do but take it and live it and make the best of what you've got.

keep your loved ones close. it's times like this when you realize, who you need in your life.







...and who you don't need.

disarm

sometimes there are things we're so anxious to know, yet so afraid of the answer. we sit on it, brooding and contemplating alone in silence, driving ourselves absolutely crazy with all the thoughts and reading too deeply between the lines. that something, lurking at the back of your mind, always there. tainting your every thought and enveloping you completely during those quiet moments. we have no control over our emotions or feelings - no matter how hard we try. all we can control is our actions. it makes me feel.. vulnerable.

i hate feeling this.











distraction could be good. so good.

muzzle

because they just don't make songs like this anymore. :p

lol. i was having a conversation about how aloof and unfriendly i seem to be. it's true, i don't make friends easily. i've never been one to approach someone random and just strike up a conversation, no matter how similar we may seem. maybe i'm just too comfortable with my old friends, most of whom i've known for more than a decade (i love you bums, see you in a week? :P).

in uni, i wouldnt say i was particularly close to many in my fashion design course. 3 max. i did make some good friends studying other fields though (which makes me wonder sometimes, if i took up the right course lol). heck, my ex even told me i lacked emotions. gawd, i sound like a block of ice. something must be wrong with me, i mean i grew up in a happy loving family, right. haha.

but hey, you know what? if i count you among my friends, ones who i wanna meet up with or hang out with or talk nonsense with (and not just another number in my facebook friends list), it means i think you're pretty fucking special.

awwwww.

it may be one week early but what the hell, happy valentine's day, yo!








(you might want to savour this moment, i'm not usually this sappy lol)

february

i watched this and laughed my ass off, cos im lame like that.

yes, i went to see saosin on monday. and yes, they were amazing. i dont think i'll blog about it though. i've already spammed your facebook news feeds with all the photos and videos, so i'll just leave it at that. lol.

it's friday! but uh, i'm not so sure what there is to be happy about, since i work on saturdays anyway :S

i AM looking forward to CNY though. february is the month for financial gain. yay. while i really hate going to shopping centers during this period (the ridiculous last-minute shoppers crowd and the irritating cny music blaring on speakers in every shop), i am so looking forward to the long break and catching up with people. im off for 9 days woop woop.

who wants to hang? :D