damned

wait. before i start, i finally watched bourne ultimatum. awesome movie. go watch it if you havent already!

anyways. i dont think i'm dealing with this semester very well. for some whacked out reason, i've been feeling overly stressed and tense for no apparent reason, worrying about every damn stupid detail. i've been worrying and stressing out needlessly about things that are still so far away. perhaps its the speed of which everything is coming at us.

i think i'm being too much of a perfectionist. wanting to do things perfectly without any glitches, wanting to arrange everything so that they don't collide with each other. trying to control too much in life. i hate that. i like things to come as they are, dammit!

next 3 weeks is gonna be pretty shiteous. i have to deal with all the photoshoots for our graduate magazine. have to make sure everyone's photoshoots are done. have to arrange them properly. it doesnt help that everyone usually does things last minute. especially since the guy who is helping us take the photos doesnt have much free time on his timetable. i think we are screwed. this sounds pretty impossible to me. and we've only 2 weeks (possibly less) to complete our garments for the photoshoot. sure it sounds a long time. but thats not the only assignment we have.

i hate mondays. mondays are the worst days of the week this semester. we have a really good lecturer but she tends to rush us through things too quickly. she wants everything submitted by the end of the class. the worst part is, tomorrow we are supposed to be having a mini fashion show, a party for a classmate who's leaving, a lesson, as well as a talk by someone from 1.30pm to 3pm. brilliant. someone shoot me now.

and i scraped my grandma's car pretty badly yesterday. so fuck rite?