i want to hit balls

ignore the suggestive title. lol.

I. FEEL. LIKE. PLAYING. POOL.

boring gilerrrr!!!!

The Subways - Oh Yeah

oh yeah oh yeah! lol. i love this song. the subways - oh yeah. Booya!

i want waffle *pouts*sulks*

AHA. now you people can't say i am wasting away at home! hahaha i just finished making my own handbag. cos well... i don't wanna buy one and see another person carrying the same thing as me (er yeah, i have a funny way of thinking) Plus it's so damn hard to actually find something that i like so i thought, what the heck just go ahead and make my own since i have plenty of time now. hehe sorry i have no picture of it though. camera battery is dead. I have to say though, i'm pretty pleased with the result hehe. since it's my first time making a bag :D

and i found out today that hitz fm is beginning to play better music HAHA. maybe i should give them a chance haha. please play more rock and less of.. er.. other stuff and i promise to listen more. lol.

oh yeah ani, first it was shal who was tempting me with that damn waffle and now YOU TOO!!??? arghhhhhh....! YOU ARE SO TAKING ME THERE ONE DAY!!! hahahahahahaha

and YAY i'm goin off next friday!! *dances gleefully* actually its not really a big deal. haha i go there every year anyway. I just feel like getting away from all this. no internet for 5 days haha. come to think of it, maybe its exactly what i need. don't have to get involved in anything. don't have to notice things i don't want to notice. don't have to think about things i don't want to think of. don't need to be bothered by little things that seem to really get at me but which i know i shouldnt give a damn about. *phew* so yeah, i totally need this getaway.

well i think its time i pissed off now. so yeah, until next time bitches!! muahahahah

*sorry la, a bit gila today :p*

just for the heck of it

er well since i'm lacking my mp3 player i have been looking for other means of entertainment. what else? music videos! hahaha... so i'll be generous and share what i've been loading and watching for the past couple of hours (btw i HAVE been doing other stuff too if you're wondering if i actually have a life lol)

soooo here goes....

1) bleed the dream - confessions (finally found the video for this song!)



2) emanuel - make tonight ( i love this song. period.)



3) Halifax - Sydney



4) Acceptance - take cover (too bad these guys broke up)



5) the red jumpsuit apparatus - face down



6) the academy is... - the phrase that pays



7)paramore - pressure



8) sugarcult - do it alone



9) lostprophets - goodbye tonight (old but one of my favs frm them heh)



err... i think thats more than enough. haha

isn't something missing

dammit i've been missing you so so much. even though you've been acting like an asshole recently.. my love, my mp3 player!!!!! hahaha...yeah finally decided to send it in to see what was wrong with it. been bugging me for the past few days. No idea how long it's gonna be away. just hope they manage to fix it soon cos i need music! ah well, worse come to worst i'll just have to burn a truckload of CDs to keep me occupied this holiday...

i just saw the video for 30 seconds to mars' latest single 'from yesterday'. cool video. damnnnnn long video as well. it's like watching a movie trailer or something. 9 minutes or something i think. It's set in China. apparently the first American music video to be filmed there. hehe. I don't have the link for it though. couldnt find a complete video of the whole thing since it just premiered.

and i like incubus' latest too. Anna Molly. lol. Brandon looks weird in this video. i think it's the funny singlet. lol. anyways here it is



which just reminds me that i no longer have the convenience of my mp3 player so i can repeat the song over and over again.

a decade under the influence

i find blogging therapeutic in a way. blog if you're bored. blog if you're sad. blog if you're happy. blog if you're angry. for my case now would be 'blog when you're bored'. lol.

Holiday has been going pretty well so far. desperately waiting for the 8th of December cos i want to go for my beach holiday!! not that Penang has a kick ass beach. I just feel like getting away from home for a while. Staring at computer screens and tv screens 24/7 is NOT going to do my already-bad-eyesight any good so a break should be good hehe.

Toby is slowly getting better thank goodness for that. That was one nasty hole. eurgh... don't even wanna start describing it.

i'm so addicted to Liar by Taking Back Sunday. lol. it's been out for a while now and i still havent gotten sick of it. I still prefer 'a decade under the influence' though. nyehehe. anyways, since Liar is the only song that's been occupying space in my head these days, here's the video (cool video hehe). and what the heck, i'll just throw in 'a decade under the influence' as well :p





speaking of music, my mp3 player is being a bitch!!! For some strange reason the damn thing turns off whenever it pleases, hangs for a few minutes during playback and sometimes wont even turn on! argh.. overusage? maybe. huh.. just when im going for my hols. i need music!! nooooo....I seem to be jinxed with mp3 players. and to make things more irritating my room lights are popping off one by one. bitches!!!

anyways will be buzzing off now.

Toby

Toby has just been taken to the vet by my dad. Dad found a hole in his skin today and it was... rotting! argh... He's been biting and scratching the area for a few days now. Dad had been washing him and even put on one of those Elizabeth Collars (is that what you call them?) on to prevent him from doing it more but he just wouldnt stop! Now he's got a rotting hole... hope it doesnt get any worse. I feel bad for him. aiiihh... stubborn little boy..

and i just realised that the banner for my blog is really fugly. lol. will get to making a new one soon i guess. not an expert though so don't expect anything nice! hahah

P.S: lol @ rach regarding the p.s on your last post :p

wtf!

'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

haha got this off ani's blog. speaking of ninja turtles, i think the movie is coming out soon. hahaha.

omg. can you believe it. i decided to turn on hitz fm after AGES and the first song i heard? Liar by Taking Back Sunday. Reaction? totally stunned. haha. serious. that was the first time i actually heard any of their songs on local radio. maybe its cos it's a new song. That's the thing about local radio stations. even if they do play one of these bands, its only the latest song. sheesh. haha ok enough about my ranting.

i finally decided to get a dA account. hahaha. i've been asked to get one several times by several people but i've never been bothered to actually do it. well since i'm on hols and have nothing better to do i decided to go for it. not that i'm some kick ass artist or whatever. just for the heck of it. i DO appreciate art though. haha

whee i love this song. 'is anybody home' by our lady peace. not too keen on their latest efforts though. prefer their older stuff. this is one of them.

well i'll be scooting off now.

Damien Rice - Cannonball

this song is pretty old. but it's really beautiful. check it out



Still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
Still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
Still a little hard to say what's going on

Still a little bit of your ghost your witness
Still a little bit of your face I haven't kissed
You step a little closer each day
Still I can't say what's going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball

Still a little bit of your song in my ear
Still a little bit of your words I long to hear
You step a little closer to me
So close that I can't see what's going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannon

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to cry
So come on courage!
Teach me to be shy
'Cause it's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna scare her
It's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna lose
It's not hard to grow
When you know that you just don't know

final fantasy woot woot

wow it's only been two days and i'm already enjoying myself so much. haha. it's incredible since i'm only at home and i'm already feeling so good. I feel so relaxed. I have nothing to worry about. no one to worry about. no work to worry about. totally carefree. All i've been doing so far? online-ing, final fantasy XII-ing, sleeping, eating, listening to music and of course messing around with my guitar. haha. mum's gonna kill me soon. i've been going from computer to playstation to computer again and back to playstation again. haha. gosh.

yeah, I finally got my hands on the latest final fantasy installment: final fantasy XII. i'm a huge fan of the series so i was really looking forward to it. i heard a lot of bad reviews before i started though, so was kinda worried how it would be. I have to say it is very different from previous FFs. Battle system has been revamped. You need licences to be able to use abilities AND equip weapons. The mogs look completely different!!! (boohoo come back mr tetsuya nomura!). the characters and setting kinda reminds me off FFIX though. It took a while to get used to the whole new system but i'm beginning to enjoy it now :) yeah i know, i know, i'm a geek. haha

i should start driving again. haven't driven in ages. driving skills suck. but i wanna start driving again. dont wanna depend on others to take me here and there. haha. and i really want to drive to college. i hate taking the damn bus. arghh... too bad. no car. haha.

i realise i use a lot of 'haha's in my instant messaging, sms-es and blogs. lol.

i think i'm running out of things to say, so i think i better go. doubt there'll be much for me to blog about during these next couple of months so don't expect anything too interesting lol. well, will be off now. going back to my ps2. haha.

it ends tonight

whoohoohoo!! i am now officially on holiday!!! *yayness* damn, it felt so good today after i submitted my final garment. i feel so free now haha. and....i found out that my next semester starts in january. Usually we only start in february. crap. looks like my 'THINGS I SHALL DO (/WANT TO DO) DURING THIS SEM BREAK' list may have to be shortened. lol.

i was going through rach's revised list of things to do and i realised i missed out something! i want a tattoo too! haha. not a huge-ass one though. a small symbolic one maybe. on my hip maybe so it'll be hidden. and so that only me (and maybe a very special person lol) can see it. hehe. not really into the whole "oh look at me ive got a tattoo!!" fad lolz. erm.. not too sure what my parents will say though. havent even decided what kind of design i want. so, i'm open to any suggestions :)

i need to go shopping. i'm in dire need of new clothes. haha.. sick of my wardrobe. thinking of changing my style a little bit. wear more heels. wear more skirts. BUT without losing the whole goth/rock/punk image that everyone seems to think i have. hahaha. gosh i'm so bored.

and here is where i will lose my reputation as a rock chick. lol. Nicky Byrne of Westlife's wife is expecting!! i used to be a huge fan of Westlife haha. really. especially Nicky, lol! so i wish them all the best :)

randomness: i love the part in lukas rossi's song headspin that goes 'did i ever mean something to you?' and he screams it in such an emo way lol

i've been listening to 'it ends tonight' by the all american rejects over and over again. love the song haha. here's a video of them performing it for aol music sessions (the guitarist on the left is so cute hahaha). and tyson (lead singer) looks constipated at the end of the video. HAHAHA


well that was a pretty random post today. before i go i wanna wish Andrew HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! and also to alex, congrats to you and sara for getting first place in glitz in your category! woohooohooo i'm out!! (i'm so freaking high, lol)

smells like teen spirit

Just as i thought i was free, my lecturers say i have to go back to college on monday.. argh... Apparently the bottom part of my dress is too plain compared to the upper part so i'm supposed to come home and add something to it and then show it to them and then only submit it. oh well.. just three more days then. Presentation went pretty badly. For most people in fact. everyone was stressing out. made me kinda pissy today too haha.

anyways, in response to rachel's "Things I Shall Do After STPM" list, i'm gonna come up with my own. hehe. (i seem to enjoy listing things out lol) just that mine is gonna be.....

THINGS I SHALL DO (/WANT TO DO) DURING THIS SEM BREAK
(forgive the lame ass title lol)
1) hang out with high school mates :)
2) look for more music (always a priority heh)
3) practise strumming guitar
4) learn how to pick a guitar like ben harper hahaha
5) pick up more songs on guitar
6) be able to play the impossible 'radical dreamers' off the chrono cross rpg game soundtrack by the end of the holiday!! (dream on, lol)
7) relax, bum around, sleep, eat
8) exercise to get rid of excess weight which is bound to come with no.7 hahaha
9) practise my sketching and colouring (i enjoy this so much more compared to sewing)
10) make a dress for myself. black of course. hehe.
11) start reading books again. haha. still havent finished reading time travelers wife. my english language proficiency is becoming teruk like hell. gawd. (english is the only language i can depend on since i cant speak a word of chinese. and my bm sucks too haha)
12) go shopping!!! wheeee! (lol, here's where my girly-ness comes out)
13) go to a rock concert (please can some good rock band come to Malaysia? gawd)
14) watch death note (even though i don't read the manga) and eragon
15) online 24/7 kyahaha
16) blog about my dead life (err..)
17) change my hairstyle. or highlight it. or something.
18) (ok i know this contradicts a lot of what was mentioned above but) try to save money. So that hopefully i can afford an electric guitar in erm... 3 years time? LOL
19) buy a new pair of chucks..or a pair of plain white north stars so i can customize it meself :p
20) go for holiday in penang!

hehe, look like there won't be time for me to look for a job! i really want to pick up drums but drum sets are expensive. and i don't wanna go for lessons. plus it feels like i've achieved more if i do it myself haha. oh well..

anyways, check out this song by Ben Harper. I've mentioned it before. Most people will prolly say its boring. but i'm in love with the guitaring :)



and this one by tori amos. it's pretty old actually. it's a slow piano driven version of nirvana's smells like teen spirit.



and now i'm off to look for something to eat. lol

jeff buckley - last goodbye

i love this song so much. it's pretty old but hey just felt like posting it :) it's kinda soft though.. anyways, here it is.




lyrics:

This is our last goodbye

I hate to feel the love between us die

But it's over

Just hear this and then i'll go

You gave me more to live for

More than you'll ever know

This is our last embrace

Must I dream and always see your face

Why can't we overcome this wall

Well, maybe it's just because i didn't know you at all

Kiss me, please kiss me

But kiss me out of desire, babe, and not consolation

You know it makes me so angry 'cause i know that in time

I'll only make you cry, this is our last goodbye

Did you say "no, this can't happen to me,"

And did you rush to the phone to call

Was there a voice unkind in the back of your mind

Saying maybe you didn't know him at all

You didn't know him at all, oh, you didn't know

Well, the bells out in the church tower chime

Burning clues into this heart of mine

Thinking so hard on her soft eyes and the memories

Offer signs that it's over... it's over

no sleep tonight

i got an sms from 'rockstar' this morning. haha. yeah i voted a couple of times for my fav rockers on rockstar supernova so i suppose that's how they got my number (should i add a '"duh"?). anyways, the sms said that Ryan Star (one of the contestants from rockstar supernova) is gonna be performing at Zouk on November 16th! haha, pretty cool... I think they've been advertising it on channel [V]. well what can i say? i havent watched tv in a long time (or at least not long enough to sit and watch the commercials) so forgive me if this is old news. haha.

anyways, final submission is on friday!! woot!! hope i can get everything done in time. No sleeping tonight i think. am glad to say that i've completed and submitted everything else that i was supposed to so, *phew* sigh of relief there. well... gtg now. nothing more worth mentioning i think. heh. besides, i have a dress to complete!!!